Silence is underrated

Peanut goes through ups and downs like the rest of us. 

He has massive burst of improvements and then he stops still, stagnant or sometimes even goes backwards with some things. This time it started last week after he learnt to ride his bike. His scripting went up massively jargon came at me from every angle and bizarre kooky and strange noises came out of his mouth like Id never heard before. The teeth grinding escalated. There is never silence and for a child who can't communicate he sure never shuts up!.. does it drive me mad?  YEP you bet, Does it get on my nerves? YES. Do I want to  put tape over his mouth and just bask in the silence? yes I do *hangs head in shame* but I don't. What I do do is get frustrated I yell at him to please be quite and he apologizes and then I feel even worse he can't help it  he is not doing it to annoy me he is doing it cause his brain can't stop him or he has no idea its as annoying as it is.  He always goes like this for a few months before another burst but I never get used to it I always feel like we have taken a huge leap backwards.  But I have to remember where we were last year and its all positive and his social skills are coming on slowly. Today he  went and cuddled a stranger and was super affectionate to MURHface (friend since year 4) 


In other breaking news Peanuts got LICE !!! hair lice.. so  mummy took action and peanut now has a shaved head and tea tree oil covering his scalp.. I will win this war !!!  I may have had to shave peanut gorgeous thick hair but it will come back but I swear you may never come back BE GONE LICE BE GONE !!!  on a plus note he must have got very close to a kid at school to get it !!  whoop whoop maybe it was social contact.  And he still looks mega cute !! 

What’s so heart breaking about a kindy group performance?

Ever heard the saying square peg round hole. Peanut isn’t square and he ain’t round he is an odd star shaped thing with extra bits on the side, top and middle trying to fit into the most boring shape imaginable. 

Everyone sitting down singing - Peanut standing up in front like a statue, Everyone standing up doing their dance - Peanut is sitting on the chairs with the audience and letting out the occasional squeel.

Everyone doing their singing and movements which peanut loves to do normally but no Peanut is sitting in the teacher aides arms pretending to be a stunned mullet!

Peanut is different yep you got it he is the kid that pisses most parents off the one making constant noise and running around like a loony and when all you want him to do is blend in he walks right in front of you trying to get your kids performance on video! Well Cameron wont ever blend in and you know why? Cause Peanut is Absolutely Unequivocally Terrifically Individual, Sensation & Memorizing.

I’m never going to let him blend in and I don’t care if other parents want to tut and send scolding looks my way and try and make me feel ashamed of my parenting skills. Well I’ll never be ashamed Peanut is amazing and we made him that way.

I’m thankful every day he is not DULL!  If he was he wouldn’t fit into our family as the most “normal” member is the half and half black bits and pieces odd looking dog we have.

But after I said all that though it is hard and it is heart breaking but not because Peanut is who he is its because this world doesn’t seem to be made for odd star shaped things with extra bits on the side, top and middle. 

xxxxx